I have a large family, that much is evident if you've been keeping up with these posts. And it's a very wide spread family. Spread across the States and across the world. Instant time travel would make life a lot easier. My family here has been so so amazing, it's going to stink tomorrow morning when I leave. They love us unconditionally even though we see them only once every few years. Every house I have been in has had mine or my sister's or my family's picture on display (one that we sent them at some point in time). My Zia Eleanor has a shelf in her sitting room with just pictures of my family. One is a shot that I didn't even know about. It's a different version of a picture hanging in my house. It was taken when I was around 5, nearly 6 years old because my sister was old enough to not look like a baby anymore. It's my whole family. Mom, dad, aunt, grandma, grandpa, sister and me. The one hanging in my house is a serious looking one with all of us displaying closed mouth smiles. The one in my zia's house has us all displaying huge grins. There's little me, clinging to my grandpa's arm, both of us with identical big grins. There is no doubt that I am my father's daughter and my grandfather's granddaughter. I look like him, with my mom's features as well. Being here has allowed me to hear so many stories about my grandpa, most of them involving how much he would eat when he was here (my family thinks I don't eat enough...fact is I just can't eat as much as my dad does haha). I'm not sure why we didn't keep the smiling picture for ourselves but I'm glad I saw it. I was beginning to forget what his smile looked like.
Anyways, the fact of the matter is that I love this crazy family and it just stinks that they are so, so far away from me. Since instant time travel is probably a few centuries off, I'm just going to have to either work a lot to be able to come here more often or find a job that pays very very nicely so I can still come here more often. Once every 4 years is just not going to cut it. I nearly cried last night when I had to say bye to my cousin Giusy and I will surely cry tonight when I say goodbye to Gianfranco and Antonella. I hate goodbyes. I know they're really only see you laters but when later is a few years off...it really hurts. Thank goodness for modern technology and more importantly, Facebook. It really has helped me keep in touch with my cousins here. And now that I have a better grasp on the language, it may seem like we're not even apart. Hopefully, I can come back soon. The problem is, the more I come here and the longer I stay, the more I miss them. It's a conundrum that will never be fixed. Oh well. So to all my family... I love you.
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