Life lately...

has found me really unmotivated to do school work. For instance, I am currently sitting in class. However, to keep myself from falling asleep, I am making a post because my teacher is so unfortunately boring. It's unfortunate because the subject is one that would usually interest me to the point of my classmates thinking me strange (history of american media). Alas (always wanted to use that), my teacher is so boring that it's making me crazy. Add that to the fact that the learning system that he uses "Blackboard" makes my internet as fast as molasses, it's been a frustrating day.

But back to my lack of motivation. I am getting through a cold and didn't even come to school on Tuesday. Yesterday, I just stayed in the lounge during a class that I knew I wouldn't miss much in. I have papers that need to be done and books that need to be read but for some reason, I just do not want to do anything. And no, the fact that the Olympics are on do not contribute to this, even though I am still following them avidly, cheering on Team USA and my photographer friends, via their teams blog NewSport Photo Agency. I met Patrick, Aaron, Clayton and Rick at the Summer National Senior Games last summer at Stanford and that was when they found out that they would be headed to Vancouver to shoot the Olympics. How cool is that?! Hopefully, I'll be there with them next time...well not with THEM per se, but in the same place, working with the Olympics. Ahhh a girl can dream, right?

See, I keep getting distracted. But maybe that's the root of my problem. Sleeping, surfing the net, watching TV just all seem so much more appealing than reading or writing for school. Even working on Convocation (which is going so smooth I should be nervous) or Regional Activity (which is NOT going smoothly so I AM worried) sounds more appealing. Oh well. I need to get my butt in gear. It's almost the end of February. 3 months from now is summer. I have to get through those 3 months though and those 3 months are filled with school work. Ugh.

Part of it is that I am going through a nasty bout of homesickness. It reached it's peak Valentine's Day weekend (no relevance I promise) which happened to be when my last post was. That post was about the Olympics in part because that was what was making me happy. In truth, I was fighting back tears all weekend. I was so depressed and feeling lonely that I believe I called my mom crying like 4 times that weekend...on top of the other countless times I called her.

Ok so this post has no real point. But it's me emptying my brain...yet again. On top of the aforementioned topic, I've got a nasty case of chest congestion which leaves me short of breath most of the time and coughing up phlegm. gross I know. ugh I just want to feel better and feel like me again, the girl who LIKES to do work. I need to find her.